syndromes... suffering...

Have you ever been inflicted by the

LOVE him

but can't LIVE with him

so have to LEAVE him syndrome?



Must have... People everywhere seem to go through their lives with his one...



1. You wait for his call. Don't lie, you do! And when he calls, you can't talk two minutes without fighting. You promise yourself next time you will keep cool and you lose th ebet. You can't bear to make him unhappy, but u invariably do.


2. Ditto with mail. Your heart pounds when u see inbox(5) and yet u don't want to open the mail and see what lies within.. It gets too much.. Because there he will be pouring his heart out and you will feel heartless because you can't find anything to say!

3. You know he loves you, more than anyone else possibly can. You feel it all the time. And yet there is one habit of his you know you just can't tolerate for a lifetime - posessiveness, self-centeredness, recklessness, don juan tactics, anger...

4. You watch a touching ad, listen to his favorite song, read all the letters stacked 2*2 in your cupboard... and the tears flow down. You just want to say "I'm sorry." And yet the sinking feeling tells you nothing can ever be the same again. Its much too late to start. If you dare to plunge into it against your guts, wou will return to this same phase six months later...

5. You want him to be happy. Always.. In every condition.. Often he doesn't understand that. It's okay... he feels you dont understand him either. And it's okay to feel guilty and sad...

6. You say you are alone. Single. Free. So why do you feel committed? Why are you so vehemently disinterested in anyone else? You are so certain that you will never be happy in life again... probably you won't. That is your punishment for flinging away the chance that life gave you.

7. Whatever you say, why does it still feel inadequate?